The victory of ‘good’ over ‘bad’ is not that ‘good’ and ‘bad’ are two separate phenomenons and one will win over the other. It is that All is One and ‘good’ and ‘bad’ are inseparable. ‘Good’ will win over ‘bad’ when we start perceiving the ‘good’ in ‘good’ and the ‘good’ in ‘bad’.
A star millions of miles away
comes up on a winter morning
and provides me warmth
expecting nothing in return.
A small seed sprouts and grows up
to become a huge tree
and converts carbon dioxide into oxygen
using sunlight and lets me breathe it
asking for no mutual exchange.
The water from a pool evaporates;
its destiny is to become rain
and fall at some other place
or maybe over me and fill me with joy.
Life is such a mysterious miracle.
So much intelligence working for me.
I open the tap and water comes out.
I push the button and a bulb lights up.
I tune the radio and music plays.
I walk and some distance gets travelled.
I vibrate my vocal chords and some sound is created.
So much happens with perfection and beauty.
And then there is this mind,
which deceives me into believing
that there is something wrong.
That something needs to be fixed;
my grammar needs correction,
my voice needs inflection,
my life needs direction,
there is so much of imperfection.
What if I listened more to life
and less to my mind.
What if life was absolutely perfect?
What would I do, what would be left to get done?
I would sit in joy and feel grateful.
And when inspiration comes along,
I will write a poem.
The title of this post is also the desktop background for my MacBook Air since yesterday. While reading The Power of Now the first time, I came across what read like, “What problem do you have right now? Not a week later or ten minutes later but now?” It changed my life forever. Since I read that line for the first time, whenever I found myself in a deeply negative mood, it just popped into my head, “What problem do I have right now? Not a week later or ten minutes later but now?”
And it brings me relief every time.
A day before yesterday, out of the blue this epiphany came even more clearly, on a much deeper level. See, I had been running around a lot. For around three-four years, my major focus was self-improvement. I read books, watched videos, eliminated watching TV or movies or sitcoms, started meditating regularly, working out regularly. I enjoyed it thoroughly; I loved growth and improvement and becoming better. But since the last few days, a shift is happening. I am moving away from self-improvement and more towards being joyful right now. Or maybe, in a more precise way, I am moving away from the idea of being happy later, when improvement happens and more towards being joyful now.
Here’s the epiphany that appeared out of nowhere: I was reading a book on improving my financial situation and having an abundance mindset and I became absolutely still. A thought appeared, ‘What if I had absolutely no problems? Like ABSOLUTELY no problems and I had everything I wanted? What would I do?’ I remained motionless both physically and mentally for a few minutes.
The epiphany was not that life is absolutely perfect and there are no problems in the present moment. I already had that one before. The epiphany I, finally, had in that moment was that it was my mind that was creating all the ‘imaginary’ problems.
We are a product of our thoughts. Whatever life situation we find ourselves in is a product of our thoughts. My current situation with my finances and relationships is a product of what I have thought in the past and I am thinking in the present. And my repetitive pattern to keep ‘learning’ and ‘trying’ to improve my situation is what was perpetuating my current situations. I was thinking the same thoughts of lack and having a ‘problem’ again and again which resulted in me being stuck in the same situation.
And in that moment a shift occurred. Instead of thinking about solving my problems and trying to improve our situation, if I just focus on being grateful for what I already have, the situation will take care of itself. This is not a theory because I have experienced this truth over and over. In fact, any improvement that happened along my journey happened only because of a shift in thought pattern and not because I was thinking the same thoughts over and over.
My really burning desire right now, in this moment, is to be joyful. Being Joyful. Period. Whatever happens, no matter what happens, all I truly want is to be joyful. And my definition of having such kind of joy is to be Unconditionally Grateful for This Moment.
That’s what I am going to focus until life nudges me to do something else.
And of course, I, my life and the Universe are already perfect and these things will still
Keep Improving Joyfully! 😉
I have an image of her
in my head.
And an image of mine
Her in my mind is divinity
and mine in her a devil.
I have put her up there
and put myself down here.
And I am glad because somewhere
I am rising and her image is falling.
Who is she beyond the image?
Anything between divinity and devil.
Who am I?
I am where divinities and devils exist
and are on a war.
I wish myself good
and her better.
The divinity in me
sees divinity in her and the devil in me.
The devil in me
sees devil in her and the divinity in me.
And I see the divinity and devil in us
and wonder what is the Truth?
It doesn’t matter what it is
because the war is eternal.
The divinity won’t win
and the devil won’t lose.
That’s what keeps us entertained;
the unending drama.
And in Truth all this is an illusion,
an image in my mind.
But who will let me know the Truth?
Who will save me from myself?
Of course, me, myself!
For quite a while I had been focussing on courage and confidence. Last sunday I planned to go out with an intention to rise in courage and confidence; do some comfort challenges and initiate conversations with strangers. I went out and did nothing. I returned and was disappointed. ‘Why can’t I do it? Should I quit? What do I truly want?’
‘What do I truly want?’
It’s a question I had asked myself so many times, for months actually, and I never was able to answer it clearly. This time the answer came so easily and clearly.
What do I truly want?
Joy. That’s it. Joy. I want joy. I want to be joyful right now. Not after I reach my goals, not after financial freedom, not after getting the ideal relationship, not after everything gets resolved… I want joy right now and that’s the one thing that I truly want.
It came so clearly and it became absolutely clear. Since then I focussed only on being joyful. If I started worrying about anything I reminded myself of being joyful. Self-improvement didn’t matter, goals didn’t matter, courage and confidence didn’t matter. Whatever I am doing, I am doing for being joyful. I defocussed from rising in courage and confidence.
Out of the blue I was reminded of my intention of improving joyfully. Improvement is good and it makes me feel joyful. And the way to make it joyful is small steps.
What was the smallest step I could take to improve? The answer came clearly; eye contact. Master eye contact.
So that’s what I have decided. I will master eye contact and then move forward. For the next 21 days, I will focus only on mastering eye contact.
I went out to a park today and looked into every person’s eyes that I could. It was joyful.
The only thing that matters to me is moving forward and not staying stuck. I have stayed stuck for years and that wasn’t joyful. Small progress is joyful.
It doesn’t matter how slow I go as long as I move forward.
Success is guaranteed as long as we are willing to persist.
There are two ways to live life. Make life happen or let life happen. The first one is about having your own agenda, using your own intelligence to get what you want out of life. The second one is to follow life’s agenda, letting life’s intelligence guide you and give you what… whatever.
Who do we trust more? That voice in our head that asks us not to go for our dreams and stick to doing that job that is comfortable? Not to leave our houses to go for an adventure trip? Or do we trust life as it happens? Can we allow ourselves to do what the deepest part of us guides us to do? Can we trust that if we live for this moment, the next moment will take care of itself?
I am not an advocate for the second method. But I definitely would like to experiment and surrender to life’s flow. I have been reading The Surrender Experiment by Michael Singer. One of the things that really moves me is when he writes, “If life can manifest the DNA molecule on its own, not to mention create the human brain, how is it that we feel that we have to control everything on our own? There must be another, more sane way to approach life.”
The voice in my head has its own doubts, “Can I just let life happen? Can I trust life and let it guide me? Will I be taken care of and be provided for? Am I that special?”
The crazy thing is that when I have allowed to let life happen and guide me, amazing things have happened. Even though some things felt ‘wrong’ initially and the voice in the head cursed me for doing those things, eventually a lot of good came out of them.
There is a me, the real me. Then, there is a voice in my head in between. And then, there is life.
Maybe, it’s time to get out of life’s way.
There you are, full of problems;
responsibilities on your shoulders,
pimples on your face,
debt in your bank balance,
loneliness in your heart,
and, of course, lack of self esteem.
Then there are billions like you
on this piece of rock called earth.
Then there are other pieces of rocks
around this big star called the sun.
Then there are billion other big stars
like the sun in this big galaxy.
Then there are billion other galaxies
in this big thing called the Universe.
And then there is this huge space
between everything that exists.
The earth reducing to ashes
will be like a pimple bursting on
the face of the Universe.
Nay, that’s way too exaggerated;
it will be much insignificant than that.
And here you are, full of problems.
How big are you in this Universe?
How big are your problems?
Have a wider perspective
and you reduce to nothing
and so do your problems.
Do you think big or small?
Do you make proper use of
the magic of thinking big?
Today, I was feeling that I don’t have anything to write about anymore. When I was writing one post everyday, I was pretty much sharing what I was learning. Since the last few days though, I have started another journey and I am having an amazing experience. So I thought, ‘why not share my experience, what I am doing?’; my truth, whatever comes from within.
So here it goes.
First of all, I am focusing on enjoying myself. I made a list of all those things that I find joy in. I was having a very clear and strict schedule just a few days ago. Now, I just have a clear morning ritual of workout and meditation. Rest is quite relaxed and, yes, joyful. I am focusing on self-healing, reading The Power of Now, voice exercises and fluency, conversation skills and some other things I find joy in.
One of the major things that I am focusing on is rising up in courage, confidence and ability to connect. I set a clear mission for everyday, go out for one hour and execute the plan. It’s an amazing and joyful process. I am taking small steps and making tremendous improvements. I am meeting new people, developing self-respect and self-trust and truly enjoying myself.
This reminds me of a quote that I read in The Artist’s Way. Here it is:
“Always leave enough time in your life to do something that makes you happy, satisfied, even joyous. That has more of an effect on economic well-being than any other single factor.” – Paul Hawken
I have been working on creating abundance in my life. I plan and intend to follow the above saying for the same. I intuitively ‘know’ the truth in this statement. Having joy in any given moment is anyway an intelligent thing to do. Why work hard for money, when you can work joyfully?
This last sentence reminds me of a video of Sadhguru speaking on the same. Here it is:
You know what? I am enjoying writing this post. Just a few moments ago, I thought I had lost my creativity. I used my self-healing technique, EFT. The thought I came up with was, ‘I create through the inner stillness within me.’ While writing this post, I feel deeply connected to that inner stillness. I am expressing myself, my truth fully. I am feeling a little vulnerable but I am not stopping myself from expressing, not filtering anything that comes out. I have found when I write like this, I feel very joyful and the post turns out to be somewhat poetic, somewhat, umm, creative.
That’s pretty much all I want to share today. Here is the gist of it:
- Focus on having joy, abundance will follow. Make a list of things you enjoy doing.
- Take small steps everyday to improve who you are. When you grow better, so do your life situations and circumstances.
- Live in the Now. This is the only moment in life. Everything else is imagination.
- Create and connect with your inner stillness. You will be filled with joy and peace.
Keep Improving Joyfully! 🙂
Tears were flowing from my eyes as I was tapping certain points on my body and mentally repeating, “I choose to feel worthy.” I continued to tap and repeat the same words as the crying subsided. A few moments later, my heart was filled with compassion for myself and others.
How often do we stop ourselves from doing things that fill us with love and joy? Do you believe that it is we ourselves that block our joy and happiness unconsciously? I didn’t believe that either when I first read about it in A Return to Love by Marianne Williamson. It again appeared in Secrets of the Millionaire Mind by T. Harv Eker. And again in The Power of Now by Eckart Tolle. It will again appear unless something is done about it. The Universe helps in arising that awareness. Life happens for us.
The unconscious thought pattern that I am referring to is lack of self-worth. We may consciously think that we believe we are worthy. But if there is an area in our life where we are not getting what we desire, what fills us with joy, it is highly probable that we are blocking that thing to come to us by not feeling worthy of receiving it.
Lack of self-worth may manifest as being shy and under-confident around people. It may manifest as not following our passion and doing work that we are not meant for. It may manifest as health and weight issues. It may manifest as deep unhappiness or depression. How it manifests depends on what we feel unworthy of. If we feel unworthy of love, we feel shy around people. If we feel unworthy of money, we block our creativity and don’t do things that will bring abundance. If we feel unworthy of a healthy body, health and weight issues occur.
Lack of self-worth causes different issues and challenges in our lives. What challenges and issues arise depend on what we feel unworthy of. The question is why? Why do we feel unworthy? Why do we block joy, abundance, love? The one word answer to that is past. In our early childhoods, we are often told we can’t have this-that. It’s okay to assertively tell a child that he/she can’t have something, no problem. But it’s how we tell which may create a problem. If a child is shouted at, angrily told he can’t have something, will that child fell worthy of that thing ever again? And who is not denied love, money or joy in childhood, with anger or some other intense emotion? Not just once but many times, if one has had a ‘normal’ childhood.
Of course, it’s absolutely unnecessary and useless to blame the past for who we are in the present. But it’s absolutely essential and helpful if we do something about it to create a better present and future.
I was feeling confused and overwhelmed with issues regarding a lack of money in my life. I have learnt EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) from The Tapping Solution by Nick Ortner. I find it quite effective. I started tapping on my issue and deeper awareness started to rise up. The surface level, conscious issue, is often caused by deeper sub-conscious issues, which in my case were my beliefs that ‘I am not good enough’ and ‘I am not worthy.’ When I continued to tap, it came down specifically to not having a ‘good enough’ english fluency and a ‘good enough’ and clear voice. This, I believe, is not quite accurate. But unless I could become aware of this, I could do nothing about it. I can and will still strive to improve both these aspects, but from a space of ‘I am good enough and worthy and joyfully improving.’
In the end, I would highly recommend and strongly intend that we raise our awareness and live in the Now. This intention is enough to bring us the tools required for creating a better future. We are all worthy of Joy, Love, Abundance, Health. Ultimately, our worthiness is just one choice away. I choose to feel worthy. Do you?
May all beings be happy. I intend everything and everyone to
Keep Improving Joyfully! 🙂
When I close my eyes,
does the world disappear?
When I am not observing,
are the things still there?
When I am sleeping,
does the earth still go on?
How do I know what happens,
when I am not there to see?
When I cannot see,
do things continue to be?
What is real and what is not?
What I see might not be there.
What I can’t see might be.
When I don’t see, it might not be there.
When I see, it may appear to be.
The question remains,
what is real and what is not?
The only real thing I know
is that I am and the world is.
I don’t know who I am,
and who knows what this moment is!
This was bound to happen. The awareness was bound to rise. I started a journey of One Year of Self-Improvement. My intentions weren’t very clear. It was getting a bit overwhelming too; creating videos everyday and stuff. But most importantly, I got lost in waiting. Waiting for improvement to happen. For lessons and results to appear. For the year to end so that I could show the world who I had become. For seeing myself to rise as an inspiration. But, awareness is bound to rise.
I am reading The Power of Now, once again. I have read it a few times before. The book is about the only real thing – this moment. Everything else is imagination. Past and future are mind creations; they both exist in the mind.
My intention was to improve myself. It still is. I will still go on and persist in that endeavour. However, I won’t call it One Year of Self Improvement.
My journey has not ended, it has transmuted to another form. It’s not about the year anymore. It’s about this moment – the only real thing.
I intend to be present to this moment; to live in the Now. The intention remains the same, the journey has got a different name.
The intention is to
Keep Improving Joyfully! 🙂